#being consistent when sick

[wtfforged]

ive been seeing a lot of mermaid zoros lately and i like him and i think that silly octopus that he let cling to him in the jaya arc should be his little-mermaid-flounder-sidekick friend

[forestshadow-wolf]

Cw: angst, (not actually) unrequited love... but it is unresolved

Soap thinking that falling in love with ghost may, very well, be the most painful thing he's ever experienced. He knows ghost doesn't do this. 'Love' or whatever. But maybe he doesn't care if it kills him.

Thinking about soap drinking a glass of scotch at night, not enough to get drunk, just enough to take the edge off. He convinces himself that it's fine, that it doesn't matter. He convinces himself that if he acts like it isn't there it won't destroy him. He convinces himself that this isn't him being self-destructive. He convinces himself that it doesn't hurt to be unlovable.

I wonder if he kneels and prays to a god he no longer believes in, not after all those years of begging for even a sliver of salvation. I wonder if he offers up his sins and prays to be just a bit more palatable, even as nothing more than a companion. He hopes and prays and has faith in a god that continues to disappoint him, because he cannot bare to be nothing. He knows he cannot ever be anything more, but perhaps he can simply keep what he has, hopefully. He prays.

I wonder if he hands ghost a chocolate, and silently begs him to continue tolerating him. I wonder if he cleans ghost's kit as an offering of his use. I wonder if he he sorts paperwork like a confession. I wonder if he slides ghost his favorite part of mealtime like repentance to the bitter taste he leaves him mouths. I wonder if he's on his knees groveling for mere tolerance to a hard pill to swallow. Maybe ghost will crush him up and take him that way.

What if he watches ghost at the pub. What if he sees how receptive he is to the advances of men and women alike. What if he thinks ghost is happier this way.

What if he sees ghost accept the free drinks from some quiet scottish bloke with a modest mohawk, and thinks maybe it's not that ghost doesn't do 'love' or whatever, it's that he's simply unlovable, untolerable, maybe ghost did crush him up but left him there flailing.

[muirmarie]

i'm never writing anything again when i'm done with this <3 (that is a joke, i'm just big mad, ignore me)

i'm not even joking tho in that it still. legitimately. needs like. 1k. more. (it probably needs like 2k, because i've rearranged some things. I JUST WANTED TO PARTICIPATE IN MCSPIRK MONTH INSTEAD OF BEING STUCK WITH THIS FUCJING THING)

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"oh it'll be like 5k trust me bro trust me i wouldn't lie to you it'll be like 5k this time i promise i promise i'm you so why would i lie to you????? trust me bro!!!!!"

[bitchfitch]

The fanfiction is letting the covid molecules into you?

no the fanfiction is fighting the COVID with boxing gloves

[scattered-winter]

every day i kick a rock and bash my head into the wall because i'll never get to go on a big space adventure and become tightly close-knit with my new found family up there <//3

[sysig]

Bad time of it, all things considered (Patreon)

[same-picture-of-a-rock-every-day]

did you… did you miss a day?

😔 unfortunately I did, prom prep, ap test prep, going back to work, a family trip and contracting the worst flu of my life all coincided around the time I would normally queue, but I and the rock promise that we will do our best to not miss anymore days and do whatever we can to regain your trust.

[cerealxperimentslain]

shit might suck right now for me health and mentally wise BUT at least my doctor said that i should get vaccinated for the rona and flu so i get to do that for free now forever so at least that’s something

[seventh-district]

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[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I've decided to get rid of my body, it only causes problems

[elytrafemme]

my best friend (no. 4, i'll start assigning emojis soon for lore followers) asked me about BPD and i told them i'd talk more about it in person because BPD is the exact overlap of my own lived experience (note: i am not diagnosed but have extensive history with BPD in a secret more confusing way) and my psychological interest. but like now i'm thinking about it and generally speaking i think anything that was a symptom towards BPD i experienced has either grown more mild now that i'm out of an active trauma situation, OR has just become part of what i consider my amorphous CPTSD thing,

but i do like. think about the efforts to avoid perceived/real abandonment. and maybe i've not gone to the lengths some folks might with this but to be honest the more i think back to my own personal history the more i realize that i do in fact repeatedly do insane shit to avoid abandonment 😭

[enbyleighlines]

Well, that was a long day!

Actually, it was more of a long week…

Suffice to say, I am very happy that my work week is over.

[skyward-floored]

I got a random surge of creative energy but when I sat down to try to do anything with it my brain went "oops, nope. sorry. can't do it boss."

[trainingdummyrabbit]

god i want to draw so fuckig bad but i do Not have the mental capacity for it

[girlivealwaysbean]

my best friend's MOTHER called me to scold me about being depressed and self isolating lol what has life even come to

[ginalinettiofficial]

ok i’m actually mad abt how little continuity dndads has rn like why are we doing memory stuff if we haven’t checked to make it consistent w what we’ve already said has happened ????

and also why are they seemingly determined to character assassinate ALL of the characters from s1???? up to and including the already dead ones?????

and ALSO what is even the plot anymore i feel like the world building has been so inconsistent and loosey-goosey and like that’s okay when it isn’t relevant to the plot but in this season where it IS relevant to the plot like. what are we doing???? who can or can’t travel between dimensions???? what are the limitations????

i’m just confused and annoyed i want it to be a fun show with a story that you can follow again but lately it’s been just a mess. still fun ofc because all five of them are just fun to listen to but like. i have not been able to make any sense of what the fuck is going on for like a solid 4 episodes now and i’m just disheartened about it. it’s gone off the rails but not in a hehehaha funny fun way.